come on come all, to the greatest show of all! watching her fall

i picked up the knife.
it was sitting next to us
i cut out your tongue
i couldnt take your lies anymore
i couldnt keep falling down
everything you said was false
you didnt deserve to speak anymore
you've hurt so many people.
when you started,
i just couldnt take the chance with you doing this again

dude. my words scare me.
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# Posted on Friday, 16 May 2008 at 7:05 PM

looks like that, get us breathing faster..

looks like that, get us breathing faster..
Your blood is my favorite cocktail
And watching you choke on it is my favorite past time
Gasping for air, I laugh as I just don't care
To small holes in your neck,
My mark has been made on you.
But I'll make sure I finish the job
As I spit your blood back in your mouth
You taste so sour, but that's what lies do to your blood
Crimson races down your face which will get to the end first?
I stop the racers and swallow them.
Your blood is no good for you now,
As you turn pale and your eyes glaze over.
This is just the nightly hunt.


Dammmmmmmmm sometimes I worry myself. I havent posted on here in a while so I thought I should. The chat window isn't coming up for me. Which sucks because I wanna chat.
I can write anything usually they have to be unhappy things though. This weekend was good because I took a lot of pictures.

I'm sorry I wont pucker my lips at you
I'm sorry I don't cover myself in make up
I'm sorry my lip gloss isn't popping
I'm sorry I wont dress like a whore
I'm sorry I wont show you my boobs,
I'm sorry I have morals and I'm not FAKE.
SORRY I'm NOT PLASTIC

# Posted on Tuesday, 13 May 2008 at 5:09 PM

i think

i think that everyone will eventually destroy themselves
at least once in their lives.
you have to.
you must fall in order to go forward.
you have to rip your own heart out
you have to show yourself who you are and what you want !
SCREAM WHEN IT HURTS
LAUGH WHEN IT FEELS GOOD
CRY WHEN EVERYTHING IS BROKEN
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# Posted on Wednesday, 07 May 2008 at 6:23 PM

not so rock solid.

not so rock solid.
This is the same old story, of a girl who had big dreams.
Sounds like every thing you've ever heard right?
Well that's because it is.

Ever since she was born she knew she was destined to have a camera in her hands. She grew up in a small town, there wasn't much there, just a diner and a grocery store. Oh and a school. When she was younger she was quite content with where she lived. However as she grew, so did her need to get away. Photography wasn't a business that would survive here. She knew that. She's pushing to get out, to get away. Maybe one day it will all work out for her, but as for now, her only vice is her camera. This isn't a happily ever after story, because this is just the start.

Armed with her 35mm
that's all she needs to take on the world
She's got the best aim that they've ever seen
She's on a mission
To save the world from what its becoming
She's going to reveal the truth to them
Make no mistake, this is your wakeup call

So I've been in a funk lately, this one has lasted for a while. I've slept more in the last two weeks, than you have in possibly 4 months. I got my ass basically kicked today, they said that if I don't get my butt to school then I'm going to be in 10th grade again. I have to take summer school which will suck. I cant do cyber school or have a tutor come to my house because the school is full of assholes. I am so not looking forward to going back tomorrow. Everyone will make jokes and crap. I don't want to deal with people anymore. I have to go see the school counselor now I guess even though I have Tom, but we don't have to pay her. Oh well. I guess I'm done for now. Its been a while since anyone but Alec knew what was happening in my life.
# Posted on Wednesday, 07 May 2008 at 5:47 PM

i've found lies hurt less..

Your lips, Grazing mine
Something I want so bad,
Yet this action makes me sick.
My heart beat is racing
Not from passion
No, its from fear.
What if someone finds us here
What would they think?
Your body, lying next to mine
The things that they would think
Would be nothing compared to the truth
This could bring them to their knees

Why do some people always do something that will hurt them? They are fine and happy yet they feel they need to destroy what makes them happy, what makes them feel good.

She liked him so much but he made her so sick. This shouldn't be happening. This cant happen. What she always thought. She knew how dangerous this could be, yet she still tempted the danger....
Tune in later to see if she makes it...
# Posted on Thursday, 01 May 2008 at 8:48 PM